Manager of Yandex Polina Anisimova about self-esteem and favorite cosmetics
FOR THE FACE "HEAD" we study the contents of beauty cases, dressing tables and cosmetic bags of interesting characters to us - and we show all this to you.
On care and makeup
One of my favorite activities in life is to organize, so I approach cosmetics in the same way, taking turns working through each section of self-care. Now I am more or less satisfied with the set of decorative and caring products, and the condition of the skin, which was achieved with their help. At the same time, she is terribly unhappy with her hair - so the whole day a whole box of new cans came to me, among which I plan to find something effective for myself. After the hair I plan to study the body: the topic of weight and condition of the skin has always been painful for me, and now I feel that I am morally ready to work on them with particular effort.
I have oily skin with pigmentation that is not amenable to any laws and regulations. If in the winter with such features you can cope with a cunning, but small set of tools, then in the summer you still have to blot your face with a matting napkin every three hours and carry a concealer - otherwise, I become like an oil pancake. In general, my skin care is simple: wash, smear with serums and polish with a moisturizing cream, with slight differences depending on the time of day. In the evening, you need an extra step to remove makeup - now it's micellar water, but I look in the direction of hydrophilic oil. Masks do irregularly, as needed or desired.
I can leave the house without make-up, but I don’t really like it: I have bright eyebrows, and I don’t like it when I don’t see them, and the effect of salon dyeing lasts no more than a week. Therefore, I can not imagine life without the means for eyebrows. Next is the tone (BB cream, concealer and powder on a daily basis, or thick good foundation when the mood is right), blush, sculpturing and ordinary, and mascara. The rest is optional.
About self-esteem
I remember how, as a student, I went to the subway for couples and clearly saw in the flickering cold light a huge wrinkle on the forehead. I thought: "God, I'm only nineteen. What will happen then?" Spoiler: it's okay, but the wrinkle is still with me.
I studied in journalism - a place where all the girls seemed incredibly beautiful to me; My self-esteem did not help. Surrounding me read my dislike for myself, however, their condemnation could not be compared with internal criticism. An abusive relationship during student days also had an effect: when for several years a close person convinces you that you are “not good enough”, it’s difficult not to believe in it, and it’s even harder to return self-esteem to an acceptable level after. Time helped me, a lot of effort and unconditional love from another person and friends.
Now things with self-esteem are much better, although I cannot say how it is customary to “love myself”. But now my feeling of my own appearance, no matter how I was still dissatisfied with myself, no longer bothers me in everyday life: I suspect that some people with whom I communicate almost every day may not even guess about it. Most importantly, it seems to me that I stopped identifying myself with my appearance: although my wrinkles, broad shoulders and “extra” kilograms are still with me, this does not prevent me from being a good friend, partner, employee, and colleague. And the features that I am not satisfied with, only require a little work - and I will do this work when priority goes to it.
About birthmark
Despite all of the above, the birthmark in the entire cheek never seemed to me a disadvantage - rather an interesting feature. As a teenager, I generally began to forget that I have it, and only remembered when I looked in the mirror. Now I do not notice it there.
In the family, my birthmark was usually discussed in a negative way. I grew up with my grandmother, and she is still the only person who sees a particular problem in my particular situation: this year, for example, I asked how I managed to find a new job with a birthmark and if it doesn’t bother my colleagues. As if I should have been hired for work not because of professional merit. Anyway, now my grandmother’s concern doesn’t cause me anything but a grin. But, if you think about it, could such a feature of appearance have ruined a career during her youth? Now this idea seems wild.
About rational minimalism
Over the past couple of years, I have not only reduced the number of caring and decorative tools in the house, but have also changed my attitude towards them. Formerly, a bank that ended was a great joy for me - you can open the next one, humbly waiting for its turn among hundreds of others. The now-ending bank is a sign that I like the tool: I do not hand it up right away to my friends or give it to swaps.
Of course, my lacquer collection has undergone the biggest changes: in golden times it numbered about three hundred copies, and in the last six months their number dropped from one hundred and fifty to eighty-five, that is, almost doubled. Now all that is left in the collection is all the most favorite / convenient / beautiful / enjoyable, but it still seems to me that this is too much - I am going to shrink down to fifty copies.
About varnishes and manicure
Gel Polish and one manicure for a long time - absolutely not my story. It so happened that in 2008 I became very interested in nails and accidentally began to buy varnishes. Then it was affordable brands from the mass market, but after I got into the cult nail_ru community in LiveJournal, met a dozen new brands and learned that nail polishes are being released in collections, everything has changed. For nine years, my interest has experienced several drops, and the taste has changed five times, but a good manicure and a beautiful coating are still terribly pleasing, and the process itself seems pleasantly meditative.
