Student Maria Servetnik about self-love and cosmetics
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About acne
Most of my life I live with "bad" skin: not so much as to include serious hormonal therapy, but enough to worry about this — for me it has become a significant psychological problem. I have been buying up all sorts of tools in hundreds in search of a "magic pill" that would solve all my problems. The money I spent on care could be leased to Liechtenstein. I was afraid to admit that such a “pill” does not exist - after all, it would mean that I still have a long life with such skin, even if I do everything correctly.
Now I am taking care of the skin according to the principles of SkincareAddiction sabreddit and the entire companion circle of bloggers. For example, I don’t add more than one money per month to current care, because this is the only way to understand what works and what does not. I love acids, I never use mechanical exfoliating agents, I don’t try to “dry” my oily skin and always apply Sanskrin. Over time, I began to treat the skin as changes in the weather: I know that what I do works, but at the same time I understand that no meaningful changes will happen in a day, so you just need to continue in the same spirit.
About make-up
Like many children with similar skin, I started to use makeup early. Now I am happy about this, because at the age of fourteen I learned how to draw straight arrows or lip contour in five minutes. So make-up, which many consider bright - that is, any that is not “my face, but better,” is a daily thing for me. Moreover, this format, which implies that you use twenty different means, only to get closer to a certain conventional standard, is not very close to me. The brilliant Smokey can be seen at least at once, it is clear that I was there to embroider there for ten minutes!
I don’t chase fashion a lot and spend little time thinking about makeup, but I have aesthetics like this: I like to look a little strange, as if aliens kidnapped me and just returned. A classic example of my everyday make-up: bright lipstick and a minimum of other means to make the lips look foreign. I like to play with a little less obvious things, for example, to draw different lip shapes, wolf wild eyebrows in half of the face, or on a ticker, as in instagram, do different contouring or not do it at all. I also love lipsticks of unusual colors, and before that I had some sort of hunting excitement about that. Now that you can buy any shade in each MAC, it is not so exciting anymore, and this is more likely one of the equal options: you can put on red lipstick, you can black, but you can bright blue - and only my mood affects the choice. Same thing with everything else, from liner to highlighter.
About manicure
I have consistently and for a long time loved everything related to cosmetics: I like to read about different types of moisturizing, consider sweatshadows and study reviews of tonal means. But one of my real beauty hobbies is manicure. My best friend back in 2007 read the nail_ru community, and at some point I was also drawn out. Now I am a co-author in her channel, where we joke about nails and everything related to their beauty, and moderate a cozy active chat, in which suddenly there were almost a hundred and fifty people.
I used to be admired by people whose nails were always made up, and I was sure that this required incredible efforts. But over time, I learned to do a normal manicure myself and began to perceive it as a pleasant act of self-love. However, even now I can hardly be called a fan of varnishes: I do not collect them, do not follow the new collections and distribute copies similar to each other. But I am pleased that I understand enough to navigate the updates and easily find the necessary.
About psychotherapy
I have an exhausting tendency to dwell on anything. In adolescence, I lost weight due to the fact that for long periods of time I did not think about anything but my own weight. If I started to play sports, I always did it with the installation "two hours a day every day my whole life." The same thing happened with work, school and all hobbies. At some point, I realized that such things do not lead to long-term changes: for some, they may work, but definitely not for me.
When all this naturally led me to depression, I finally went to a psychologist. And I continue to work with him to this day, although past problems have long been resolved. I sincerely believe that every person on earth would benefit from four sessions with a good specialist. I have been going to therapy once a week for the last two years - I could not even imagine how much better life would be. The psychologist teaches me to be a man: not to engage in self-torture, to perceive myself adequately, to be sad when it is sad, to have fun, when it is fun, to do what I can, and not to suffer if I cannot do something.
About healthy lifestyle
It was thanks to working with a psychologist that for the first time in my life I began to go to the gym regularly and this finally brings me joy. I also learn to eat right, without slipping into emotional overeating and orthorexia. I came to the first meeting with a coach with a clear attitude to learn how to enjoy the sport. This is what I learn. My five-year plan is to learn how to do push-ups with cotton and press a hundred kilograms from the chest. Sport for the sake of sport turned out to be a very cool occupation, especially in those moments when it seems that you can no longer. But it turns out that no, you can, and how!
I attach a lot of importance to how healthy I live. First, I try to make such decisions, which I will not have to regret at the age of sixty. So I try to sleep for at least eight hours, drink plenty of water, meditate, eat plenty of vegetables and raw cereals. Secondly, I plan to do science all my life, and the academy has this toxic rhetoric of workaholism, supposedly, life has been given to you in order to devote it to physics. I am against this approach: balance is important to me, I don’t want to allow emotional burnout. I want all my life to do what I love and get pleasure from it. But in order to succeed, we need a life outside the beloved work In general, it seems to me that happy people work better, so first of all I strive to be happy.
